Recovering

I'm recovering from the 50 miler. More mentally than physically. I ran last night and my legs felt a little dead, but I feel like I'm recovered to a point where I feel mostly normal.

The mental recovery is taking much longer. The race really beat me up. It took much longer than I had expected, and for the first time that I can remember, I was below average. I'm not fast, but I generally finish in the top 25-30% of participants. I wasn't even in the top 50% of runners at Bear Mountain. When I finished, I didn't get the high from finishing the event...I just felt like crap and was bummed out. Then to find out Vermont was full, I felt like I did it all for nothing.

I'm starting to accept the race and move on, but its been a weird week. For now I'm just trying to focus on moving forward and having fun at the Brooklyn Half this weekend. After that, its time for Race Across the Window again. More details to follow on RATW.